i know I'm telling myself the same thing.. "it's 1am what are you doing up?!"

But I some times just can't go to sleep! Ugh I'm tired and keep yawning but it's as if my body isn't ready to shut down and luck for me I have to be up at 6:30 tomorrow! :D (I hope you can see the sarcasm in this)I feel like my bodies punishing me. Grr and then this is when I started to make a check list in my head about the things that I have to do and makes me more nervous and then I REALLY can't go to sleep. Oh man but on the brighter note spring break is almost here :) to bad I dont have any plans, we are thinking about going to tampa for a weekend but ehh I would really want to go to Puerto Rico or maybe Cancun.. But unfortuntaly everyone (well my friends and boyfriend) is broke lol grr can't our tax returns get here already. Which reminds me I can't wait to use that money on a new computer, ugh as much as I love my phone it isn't the same as a regular laptop. Acouple more weeks until a can recieve my brand new MacBook. But on the mean time my iPhone will have to do or hopefully my boyfriends computer will be fixed by tomorrow.

--now I'm finally falling asleep as I finish typing these last words. Goodnight.

11 am class

Im not much of a morning person and I know having a 11 am class is better than a 8 am but when I actually arrive to my class I regret for even wasting my gas.. Don't get me wrong he's a great teacher but everything he talks about I have known since middle school. Its a bit of a drag to be here.. especially on Thursday, my worst day of the week, after this I have to go to work, and then spend another 3 hours in a classroom. I usually get home around 9pm. I know there are people out there that have a WAY worse schedule than me but ugh I'm pooped by the end of the day. And lucky for me I get to go to work at 9:30 tomorrow to take care of my 3 year olds at their Valentine's Day dance. Nothing is more exciting then to be with 24 kids that have had cookies, chips, juice, pizza, candy, and cupcakes in their system! oh joy lol

--Wish me luck! :)

Wow I can't believe its been eight years since 9/11. Its sad to know how many people died that day. But that day for me went by really quickly. I was eleven years old in the sixth grade. I had just started middle school. And When I entered my second period class, reading. We were told by the intercom that no one should turn on the television, internet, or radio. We were all confused including the teachers. But we did as we were told. And then about every five minutes or so the phone would ring and someone would be leaving for early dismissal. All I could think about is whether I was going to be picked up early, since I hated my fourth period class, history. And then the phone rang for the 20th time and it was my turn. My dad picked me up right before the bell rang. I was so happy but curious at the same time. On the way home my dad told me that one of the Twin Towers had been hit by an airplane, but since I have never been to New York I had no idea what he was referring to. So I just nod and let the radio ramble on. Now I regret not paying more attention but at that age I really didn't understand what was going on. So when we got home my mom had the television on and thats when I saw it, It seemed like a movie. I saw the towers collapsing and bodies jumping out of windows, it was scary. So I decided to go upstairs and take a nap. When I woke up I was trying to watch TV but they kept showing clips of the towers. It started to annoy me. For the next couple days my teachers tried to explain this awful event we had just experienced, some kids in my class had family members and this was hard on them but to me all I felt was sympathy for their lost since I didn't anyone from New York. But now as the years have gone by I understand more of what this tragic event has left in our history.

five going on sixteen.

This past weekend I spent sometime with my two younger cousins, one is seventeen and the other is five. And now that I'm surrounded by kids all day, I've noticed a quite of few things. Like how much television has influenced the way a five year old can act. Its incredible how much she wants to be like "Hannah Montana" or "Selena Gomez". My little cousin swears she's the same age as them. Half the things she says I probably didn't know until I entered seventh grade. lol. and she's only FIVE! Yeah we all find it "cute" when she tries to act grown up and says things you wouldn't think she knew but if you really think about it, if shes acting like this at the age of five I wonder what she might be doing at the age of thirteen. I mean seriously these little girls are maturing way too quickly. I think this might be a reason why teen pregnancy is so high right now. Parents need to explain to their daughters that theres an age difference and when your a certain age you can act a certain way but at five years old you should still be playing with your Barbie's, not worrying if you have a boyfriend or not.

my "oh so exciting" summer !

So this summer all I did was work. blah. I love my job but when everyone else is at the beach or sleeping in I feel left out. But oh well at least I had money. (: And since I work at a pre-school I have the weekends off so it wasn't that bad. One thing that I did do this summer, besides work, was I turned 19! Every time my birthday comes around I get so excited I swear its a national holiday. lol.
We spent the weekend at the beach and came home with a serious tan. I had a good time. My boyfriends birthday was in July, a month after mine, and we had an okay time. but like I said overall my summer consisted of working and a couple of trips to the beach and pool.